DONE.

oh my god.
i am in the airport in jakarta.
IT SUCKS HERE. seriously.
waiting for my 9 pm flight back to surabaya.
here's to it not getting delayed.
FINISHED NTU TEST TODAY!!
guess who was number 170?
AGATHAAAAAAA WAS!
oh my god.
the math test was unbearable.
the calculator didn't help much.
skipped 2 questions cause the time ran out.
finished 15 out of 17.
i don't know.
pray for me?

anyway...
recapping what happened this week.
stayed at home on monday.
tuesday, went to romi's house for aerobics.
amiek got mad at hansel.
awkward silent, much?
anyway, that was finished quickly.
wednesday went to romi's again.
for the play, which ended at 7 ish i guess.
thursday at romi's again! OhMYGod.
romi we are sorry for ruining your house.
for stinking up your expensive leather sofas.
and most importantly stinking up your carpets. hehe :)
thursday at romi's again after a day of laboratories and exams and homeworks.
went back to school to set up all the decor for the play for the next day.
stayed at school until 11 pm.
which is a perfect 2 hours over my bedtime. seriously.
the play was okay ish.
wore my forever21 black top with a black skirt i own from ages ago
that was apparently too short as i was running around the stage carrying a microphone.
i felt like FAT britney.
jah.

anyway.
NTU TEST DONE
oh my Jesus, i cant believe it is
and i am so relieved
and i am so ready to get back at partying with friends and eating out again.
and shopping again.
*sigh*

oh yeah.. little note
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST FRIEND PRISCILLA!!!!!
i hope you have the best damn birthday ever
even though i am not around :(
thankyou for being an amazing friend throughout all these years
and not complaining with my cursing.
hoping you have a better year!
hehe :)

birthday wishes.

amiek's bday is today!
happy birthday to her!!! :)
she's 18.
omygod.
may God bless her in everything she does..
anyway

me and the kids bought her a cake from harvest


it was so goodddd :)
and we asked ricardo who was nearby at the time to take photos of us
and in return, we gave him a humongous piece of cake.
but it turns out, garry walked by.
so we asked him instead to take pictures, and ricardo joined on the pic. haha.

top: hansel - ivan - ricardo - adryan - hendry
bottom: cha2 - romi - ME! - amiek the bday gal - kristina - elien

so anyway,
had math exam today
and my stomach wasnt cooperating
so i ended up being sick and wanting to throw up the whole test
gah.

had lab hours to do today.
so thankful for elien, hendry, and lydia who were so patient with my bitching.
i am sorry :(
i am just not in the mood for voltmeters and amperemeters.

so..
valentine's in 2 days.
haven't bought anything for the cupcakes.
*sigh*

sleep-deprived.

got sick today.
had to go home from school earlier.
had a really bad stomach ache.
really really bad.
i could feel the pain on my back and everywhere, so i went home.
and then ate soup for the whole day.
and drink hot tea.

anyway..
don't have much to say today, other than the fact i'm terribly tired.
tired.
sleeping isnt really sleeping when your brain is still thinking.

jah.
on a lighter note,
been thinking of this chinese proverb thing lately.
xiao xin.
which my friend said means "be careful"
but i read somewhere, that it's this advice men used to give their sons.
they'd tell their sons to marry girls they don't really love.
and even if they do love her, they aren't supposed to be "giving" his heart to her.
cause if she dies, their sons will not have anything left.
i guess it's just interesting.
:/

HOLIDAYS.

NO SCHOOL TODAY!
what a relief.
but still, with chemistry and civic exam on monday
:/
stole couple of pics from cha-cha's blog



so anyway, been reading my old blog posts
i feel like the level of depression rises up to like the highest level of all these last couple of days.
and i'm sorry that i've been a bitch to everyone.
and i really feel stupid.
people everywhere have tougher problems than me
and i see them flashing a big smile everyday.
i feel like there's so much pressure.
dear everyone who reads this post,
if i don't get accepted at ntu, please bring me a huge cake and tell me it's okay.

sydney sucks tho.
it's mothereffing cold.
not like the-air-conditioner-is-too-cold, but like
i'm-wearing-gloves-in-a-room-with-heater-on-full-blast-cold.
jah jah jah.

anyway, will probably not go to our group project meeting thingy.
will study math.
i am so boring.

SO ANYWAY.
valentine's day in what, 7 days?
mannn, gonna bake cupcakes!
hahaha.
baking cupcakes is probably the highlight of the day.
*sigh*

he was ever so inviting.

man. math test done.
is it safe to say i aced it?
i don't know. but it's pretty easy. okay-ish. haha.
but my hands kept on trembling and i couldn't get the cap off from my green highlighter
and the insides fell out.
IT FELL OUT.
during the math exam.
"WHAT THE FUCK?!" screamed inside my head.
jah. cut my fringe today!
anyway,
ave is having the bone flu.
is there such a thing?
apparently there is.
so i'm wishing her to get well soon :)
anyway,
this is such a boring post.
BORING. no photos.
but will probably get some tomorrow.
we're supposed to practice our aerobic routines.
YES we have aerobics on our P.E. curriculum.
i feel like wearing all my leggings and neon oversize t-shirts, and just start dancing.

anyway anyway.
i feel like people should just give up entirely on the idea of love.
it is useless, time consuming, and rather confusing.
i don't know.
it makes well educated, proper girls turn into mindless, and need i say, brainless lumps of 100 pounds of meat.
Sometimes I think we fall in love because our hearts
are beating too loud to hear our minds screaming,
" Don't do this to yourself! "
*sigh*

i don't know why
but the weirdest thought just went into my mind.
ive never been in a ferris wheel.
or maybe i have but i just cant remember it.
either way..


"Oh, my God
I hate the me that I've become
This needy, useless, forgetting one
Truthfully, i can't be the me
The me that I've washed up to be.."

jitter.

the day has come.
TOMORROW. tomo-fucking-rrow.

ID card, bills, checklist, *sigh*

stupid ID card photo taken after stupid school. stupid hair won't do what it's supposed to stupidly do.

anyway i am giving myself time to blog and surf the internet until 3 pm.
after that, i am back to the cave of ielts test
PLEASE someone pray for me.
pretty pretty please?
my stomach has been achy for the past hours
cause i've been constantly thinking about this test.

on a lighter note,
today at school was good. better than most days.
a rumor had broken,
that the math teacher was kicking people out of classes
if they don't bring a book he asked us to bring yesterday.
well what do you know, i didnt bring the book.
neither did elien. and amiek. and cha2. and adryan. and hansel.
and everyone else on the gang.
haha. gang.
anyway. we thought it'd be fun after all to get kicked out,
since math is usually pretty boring.
so when the teacher came in and asked us about the book
we were readily surrendering and were so prepared to be kicked out.
and what happened was, he had planned to do that on saturday.
HE PLANNED TO DO THAT ON SATURDAY.
SAT-TUR-DAEEEEY.
so we didn't get kicked out.
boo hoo.

much lighter note.
my chicken that almost got lost.
poor chick had one of her eyes fallen off.

chicken and her good eye.

chicken and her bad eye. it's funny how she looks asian in a way..

p.s. do you think wearing my lame leggings for the yearbook photo a good idea?

p.p.s. here is an example of what the topic for the writing test is going to be like tomorrow

Women are always better parents than men. How far ypu agree with this? Give your opinion in not less than 250 words.

if i got that, id probably just write AGREES. in bold and very large lettering.
you know, just to get the point across nicely.

life is..
..what you make it to be.
supposedly.
i don't know what i'm supposed to believe anymore.

so today i woke up kinda early around 8 am-ish.
i ended up doing math problems for the next 2 hours or so.
and this was supposed to be a holiday. *sigh*
its kinda depressing to see how the hours fly even quicker when you ponder over numbers.

i took an online survey today.
it said that i am not only individualistic, i am also bossy and i have peterpan complex.
which is really short for saying that i am a selfish bitch who never wants to grow up.
boohoo.

someone told me that "being on tightrope is living, everything else is just waiting."
well i'm constantly hoping for some wind to blow me over the rope.
just for the fun of finding out how it feels to fall.
just for the fun of finding out who'll be waiting on the ground.