HOLIDAYS.

NO SCHOOL TODAY!
what a relief.
but still, with chemistry and civic exam on monday
:/
stole couple of pics from cha-cha's blog



so anyway, been reading my old blog posts
i feel like the level of depression rises up to like the highest level of all these last couple of days.
and i'm sorry that i've been a bitch to everyone.
and i really feel stupid.
people everywhere have tougher problems than me
and i see them flashing a big smile everyday.
i feel like there's so much pressure.
dear everyone who reads this post,
if i don't get accepted at ntu, please bring me a huge cake and tell me it's okay.

sydney sucks tho.
it's mothereffing cold.
not like the-air-conditioner-is-too-cold, but like
i'm-wearing-gloves-in-a-room-with-heater-on-full-blast-cold.
jah jah jah.

anyway, will probably not go to our group project meeting thingy.
will study math.
i am so boring.

SO ANYWAY.
valentine's day in what, 7 days?
mannn, gonna bake cupcakes!
hahaha.
baking cupcakes is probably the highlight of the day.
*sigh*

to whom it may concerns.

"I wish I could do better by you,
'cause that's what you deserve"

and dear, i deserve better.
i don't know, for the past couple of days, I've been thinking.
and anyone who's ever had their hearts broken know this feeling far too well, im sure.
"someday we'll be able to be friends."
and i hate to be the one to bear the bad news,
but it's not gonna happen.
unless you forget them first.
it doesn't work backwards.
you don't get to forget them by being their friends.
you get to be their friends after you finished forgetting them.
I"ve also come to realize, that, when you don't forget the people you loved, with a d,
it is not a sign that they are your one and motherfucking true love.
its just a sign, that it's gonna take a little bit more time to heal that wound.
and that you dont have to try so hard, to like every other boy/girl you find along the road, just cause you think that you've been heart broken long enough
because good things come, when you least expect them.
so that's that.

new year is coming!
nah.
i'm actually dreading the fact that it IS coming.
gonna do something with the family.
since everyone else is being such a wuss and studying for ntu on their holiday.
its a freaking holiday, and kids are studying.
*sigh*

p.s. when my msn said i'm studying, i really am not.

that's it for now.
oh p.p.s. yesterday my cousin came and brought her kids along,
i thought I'd be over the children-disliking feeling after turning 17,
but what do you know, i am not. :/