sunday.

ahhh best weekend ever.
retarded photo box session from yesterday:

but i still look cute. HAHA.

went to the church in the morning.
went home at 9.30 am ish.
and then got sleepy after watching tv, and then slept for 2 hours.
woke up and realized my dad had changed the channel to a mandarin soap opera thing.
and i switched it back to my channel.
and then slept again.
*sigh*

and the went to the mall!!! :D
i felt like this post has been, "and then.. and then.. and then.."
but i'm so happy right now, i couldn't even find any other conjunctive.
OKAY. so not important.
BOUGHT SHOES AT CHARLES&KEITH.
(and liquid eyeliner at body shop.)
the shoes at banana republic is gone.
someone bought them.
and the ones at zara are so overpriced, 1 mill for a pair of shoes?
i don't think so.
i may be materialistic, but i still have a brain.

anyway, yesterday, i had been making plans with jojo
to see if we could hang together today.
and she called and said she could.
but nobody could make it.
WHEN SUDDENLY.
i told her "what if we go to this new place called loop near my house?"
loop is like this food place, lots of restaurants, yadayadayada..
and so, "i'll check with agatha"
and then it turns out agatha could make it!!! :D

so we hung.


talked a lottttt at starbucks.
actually, went to starbucks twice.
once was with my mom and dad
"can i have 1 tall hot chocolate? non-fat?
and also, 1 tall green tea latte, also non-fat?
OH right, and 1 tall caramel machiato, decaf and non-fat?
thankyou!"
what an order.

turns out, danica can make it aswell!!! (yaaaay!) and then, karina made it!
so its the 5 of us.
fun fun fun fun fun.

photobox with jojo and agatha

"switch! switch! click the photos! 1 second leftttt!!!!"

at loop, took pictures the moment we touched down.

and yes, that IS a bandage skirt! i looked skinny, no?

we ate sushi at this place called sushico.





which didn't end well, i suppose.
the portions were way too small.
so we left and went to this other place luigi's, i think.
they serve steaks and stuff.
BUT IT STARTED RAINING!!!
and mind you, it's an outdoor restaurant.
so, jojo pulled out an umbrella we had brought.
and we were laughing so hard,
cause all around us were like couples so in love,
and here we are, with a big honk of an umbrella over our head.




anyway,
so we thought maybe God didn't want us to eat.
maybe He just want us to be skinny

but as always,
that never stopped us.
WENT TO CHOCOLATE DROP!
ate fondueeeee.






and after finishing the fondue,
we head home..
took one last photo with danica..


and one last photo of yours truly of course :p


on the way home,
me and danica started acting like we were the GPS in agatha's car.
shouting stupid things like "turn left in.. 5..4..3...2..1"
and things in mandarin like "wang you kuai womann!"
hahaha.
what a fun day.
i love you girls :)

so total of the day..


pair of shoes worth IDR 349.ooo
photo box session worth IDR 15.ooo
eyeliner worth IDR 119.000
and an experience that is.. PRICELESS :)

friends.

dear friends..
no words can ever say how i feel about you all.
no song can be sung.
no photo can be taken.

i found a side out of all of you today that i've never known before.
we are all fragile little creatures.
but i'm glad i have all of you other little creatures to hold on to.
yes, we are all stupid, and we're better off asking someone who knows better.
yes, we are all young, and we still don't understand what evil can the world do.
yet, the fact that we are all the same makes it easier.

i don't know what i did right.
cause i think i did.
"Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to war
Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye"
and it's senior year!
i cannot believe that it is going to end soon. very very soon.

i remembered talking to amiek months ago.
saying how the clouds resembles how us seniors are.
we looked at the sky during P.E. and she said
something about the clouds being so far away..
yet so close.

i don't know how i'm going to be able to say goodbye to these kids.
i am going to miss them.
wherever it is that i am going.
i will be missing them.
like a fish missing water.
well maybe not HAHA.
maybe yeah.

it's as easy as 1-2-1-2-3-4
there's only
1 thing
2 do
3 words
4 you
I love you!

jitter.

the day has come.
TOMORROW. tomo-fucking-rrow.

ID card, bills, checklist, *sigh*

stupid ID card photo taken after stupid school. stupid hair won't do what it's supposed to stupidly do.

anyway i am giving myself time to blog and surf the internet until 3 pm.
after that, i am back to the cave of ielts test
PLEASE someone pray for me.
pretty pretty please?
my stomach has been achy for the past hours
cause i've been constantly thinking about this test.

on a lighter note,
today at school was good. better than most days.
a rumor had broken,
that the math teacher was kicking people out of classes
if they don't bring a book he asked us to bring yesterday.
well what do you know, i didnt bring the book.
neither did elien. and amiek. and cha2. and adryan. and hansel.
and everyone else on the gang.
haha. gang.
anyway. we thought it'd be fun after all to get kicked out,
since math is usually pretty boring.
so when the teacher came in and asked us about the book
we were readily surrendering and were so prepared to be kicked out.
and what happened was, he had planned to do that on saturday.
HE PLANNED TO DO THAT ON SATURDAY.
SAT-TUR-DAEEEEY.
so we didn't get kicked out.
boo hoo.

much lighter note.
my chicken that almost got lost.
poor chick had one of her eyes fallen off.

chicken and her good eye.

chicken and her bad eye. it's funny how she looks asian in a way..

p.s. do you think wearing my lame leggings for the yearbook photo a good idea?

p.p.s. here is an example of what the topic for the writing test is going to be like tomorrow

Women are always better parents than men. How far ypu agree with this? Give your opinion in not less than 250 words.

if i got that, id probably just write AGREES. in bold and very large lettering.
you know, just to get the point across nicely.

nu yerrrr.

oh. my. god.
2009.
is coming.
in less than 48 hours.

lots of things have changed since last year.
i didn't cut my hair as much.
i didn't study as much.
but i still disappoint my mom and dad as much.

i learned a lot of things in 2008.
that life really is what you make it to be.
i learned to trust people more.
after being disappointed so badly in '07, i felt like there was no point in even trying to make the best out of 08.
i stopped caring for a while, got angry at God for a while, but then, it just stopped.
cause i learned it's important to let go.
to let go of all the past memories, troubles, cause more often than not, it is only holding you back.
walked a step towards the person i really want to be.
i started being my own role model.
i made a huge decision to cut people out of my life.
people that aren't there for me through everything life may bring.
people, although they're nice, aren't what i'm looking for in a friendship.
i learned to make friends for life.
but still, the one thing i have yet to learn is to love like i've never been hurt.
and last, but definitely not least,
i learned, that some people are there for you to love, some are there for you to need, but most importantly some are there to teach you a lesson.

in a way, i changed a lot this past year..
i matured. i guess.
even in my oversize-t-shirt-and-no-pants-wearing phase, i am maturing.
if it wasn't for the friends that i have, i will be nowhere near where i am now.
so thanks.
and also to the dear Lord who has been so patient with me over these years..
i thank you.

my official list of new year resolution
1. got into a good school, whether it's in s'pore or in sydney
2. be a better daughter, sister, and friend.
3. curse less. and i mean waaaaay less.
4. pray more.
5. most of all, love more.

I count the steps, the distance to the time when it was me and you,
So far gone,
Another face, another friend, another place, another end.
But I'll play on
And it's a winding road, and it's a long way home.
So don't wait for someone will tell you it's too late
Cause these are the best days
There's always something tomorrow
So I say let's make the best of tonight
Here comes the rest of our lives..

to whom it may concerns.

"I wish I could do better by you,
'cause that's what you deserve"

and dear, i deserve better.
i don't know, for the past couple of days, I've been thinking.
and anyone who's ever had their hearts broken know this feeling far too well, im sure.
"someday we'll be able to be friends."
and i hate to be the one to bear the bad news,
but it's not gonna happen.
unless you forget them first.
it doesn't work backwards.
you don't get to forget them by being their friends.
you get to be their friends after you finished forgetting them.
I"ve also come to realize, that, when you don't forget the people you loved, with a d,
it is not a sign that they are your one and motherfucking true love.
its just a sign, that it's gonna take a little bit more time to heal that wound.
and that you dont have to try so hard, to like every other boy/girl you find along the road, just cause you think that you've been heart broken long enough
because good things come, when you least expect them.
so that's that.

new year is coming!
nah.
i'm actually dreading the fact that it IS coming.
gonna do something with the family.
since everyone else is being such a wuss and studying for ntu on their holiday.
its a freaking holiday, and kids are studying.
*sigh*

p.s. when my msn said i'm studying, i really am not.

that's it for now.
oh p.p.s. yesterday my cousin came and brought her kids along,
i thought I'd be over the children-disliking feeling after turning 17,
but what do you know, i am not. :/