bored.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park,
I asked God who I'm supposed to be. The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie
I said a prayer and fell asleep I had a dream That I could fly from the highest tree. I had a dream.

we still don't have our lessons back!
is it a yay?
i suppose so.
well all the other classes look like a freaking graveyard compared to mine.
we're like so happy.
took a photo here.
a photo there.
wa wa.

romi, such a geek.

the day started like any other day.
went to school.
then come 7.45 am,
romi and i headed down to the principal's office.
and then we waited..
and waited..
aaaaaand, waited...
:(
until suddenly, my teacher told me that we were asked to go to the chapel.
to pray.
so we did.
prayed hard.
and then she told us to come back at 12-ish pm.
SO WE DID.
and we waited again.
waited..
and waited.
until finally...

he let us in!

the room was so cold, and it smelled so weird
i was like so afraid, that i couldn't even breathe properly
cause i was so afraid that he might hear me breathing :(
which is completely stupid, now that i look at it.
and then the principal said something about
what's the point of being smart if we're not morally right?
and then brought up the-guy-who-killed-himself-at-ntu-case.
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT I STILL THINK HIS GHOST WAS IN MY ROOM.
so anyway..
he told us, that all of us must come back to the chapel tomorrow morning at..
6.25 am. can you believe it?
6.25 as in TWENTY FIVE PAST SIX IN THE MORNING.

may God bless you all in getting to school on time tomorrow.
*sigh*

tired.

woah.
today has been bizarrely weird, to say the least.
had english test in the morning, but i forgot about it
and i didn't study at all
jah, but i did okay, i think.
anyway.
had aerobics practice again today.
which was really kind of useless.
cause i didn't even break a sweat.
and so, i spent the whole entire day studying math for the ntu test thingy.
shit shit shit.
will be leaving for jakarta in 2 weeks man.
pray pray pray for me.

am currently wishing that priscilla will make it onto nus.
scored 107 in chem test. haha.
i am such a geek.

so anyway anyway,
took a lot of pictures at romi's house today.
will go steal some from cha-cha's blog.
:)

SUNDAY. bloody sunday.

"well behaved women rarely makes history"
read that in someone's lookbook
i find that interesting. to say the least.
anyway, i miss the old me.
the me who was very passionate about music, and unimportant stuff.
seriously.
gah.

anyway, been having trouble at lookbook, cause i couldnt hype anyone!
and i emailed yuri, who made lookbook
and she kindly replied me, and hopefully, i can hype someone soon!!!! :(

anyway, pics from yesterday *before escaping* hahaha






OH yeah, by the way, my mom's friend gave me a Kate Spade bag and purse.
and i haven't had the slightest clue to where i should wear them
*sigh*





anyway, been thinking of making a mix CD
and i have dubbed it the "exam-homework-shitty assignments-mix-CD"
1. lady gaga - poker face
2. mgmt - kids
3. the ting tings - impacilla carpisung
4. paramore - misery business
5. lady gaga - disco heaven
6. cobra starship - guilty pleasure
7. avenged sevenfold - girl i know
8. the ting tings - great DJ
9. katy perry - hot 'n cold
10. 18 visions - i let go
11. the veronicas - untouched
12. the academy is... - his girl friday
13. bowling for soup - high school never ends
14. escape the fate - this war is ours
15. chiodos - i didn't say i was powerful, i said i was a wizard
16. kanye west - stronger
17. the ting tings - that's not my name
18. lady gaga - boys
19. mgmt - love always remains
20. underoath - moving for the sake of motion

hopefully that will cure my anxiousness over graduating high school THIS YEAR BABY!
*screams*

"don't worry. you may think you'll never get over it.
but you also thought it would last forever"

escapee.

escapee.
that's who i am.
who i, amiek, elien, and kristina were for today, at least.
haha.

went to school today for the christmas thing (boo)
dropped of my gift for the gift exchange thing.
i bought a little blue dolphin purse that costs like IDR 7,5k
it's so cute that i actually got a little duck/chick yellow purse for myself!
(will post pics later)
and 2 erasers (cause they said that the gift has to include stationery in them)
but i forgot to take off the price from the erasers!!!!
*stupid me*

so anywaaay,
at about 7 we went to church for the mass.
and after mass, like at 9-ish am, we went back to school.
at approximately 10 am, i said to kristina that i want to go to mcdonald's.
but the only problem is the only way we can go there is by running trough the gate that's separating the church and the school.
oh yeah, and not get caught by the teachers.
and from there, we have to run out of the gate of the church
to the roads and then walk our asses to mcdonald's.

so then we did all of that.
but then got so tired after all the running and the laughing
that we actually stopped at kristina's pad, which is like 30 meters away from mcdonald's
and ordered french fries from her house instead.
silly, silly gals.

ANYWAY!
dior glasses arrived.
yeaaaaah!
haha.

lonely.

currently:
dying from the fumes of acetone that is my nail polish remover.
gone are the black nail polish.
here's how my nails look now *sobs*


excuse the fat thighs.
freaking horrible.
it's stained.
and i can't get it out even by putting liters and liters of remover
and now i'm high from acetone.

baked some Japanese cheesecakes
even when the insides of my brain screamed "and you said you wanted to be skinny?"
and to the people who told me that i'm "not fat"
that doesn't make me skinny either, does it?
will have to stop eating dinner.
lookie:

had another picture, but blogger is being a bitch and not letting me post them.

so anyway, school's tomorrow.
i think we're only picking up the new books.
but i don't know.
i'm armed with my new pens and pencils.
ready to learn.
HELL NO.

bought a new wallet.
i seemed to forget to mention that everytime.
it's a brown wallet from Dorothy Perkins
cause i have no money to buy designer wallets.
gah. it costed like 400k, but then got discounted till it's only 100k-ish.


yes i can be deeply sentimental.
but at most times, i am deeply materialistic.
deal with it.

"I can't help myself I'm addicted to a life of
material.
It's some kind of joke, I'm obsessively
opposed to the typical.
All we care about is, runway models, cadillacs
and liquor bottles.
Give me something I wanna be, retro glamour,
Hollywood yes we live for the fame.."