thaniabites

please know, that underneath this hard exterior,
i am only a person.
i make mistakes and i don't always do the right things.
it seems that i have gone harder with time.
and it's not true.
it's the total opposite.
please know, that it hurts me to know that i've hurt the people i call friends.
do not make this harder for me.
i wish i can be who i am outside, in the inside.
i wish i don't put so much effort and care into one problem.
i wish i can just brush it off and pretend nothing ever happens.
well i am new at this. i am new at this being humane thing.
i am not proud. i block a lot of things out of my life.
i do not want to get hurt.
so i'd rather be ruthless and hurt everyone else.
i know this won't make much sense to anyone.
but this is what's truly happening.
:/