thaniabites

last entry of the year 2009.
i started the year being not quite sure of where i would go to uni..
of how high my high school period would end, well i guess i just was unsure about the future.
well to be honest. i don't even know how to begin.
the year has been such a blur.
it felt like one long day.
super long day.
and 2o10 will be just another super long day haha

i started the year with such an optimistic (i hope?) view that this year will be better than the last.
started the year thinking that 2008 was such a sucky year, that there was no way in hell
that 2009 was gonna be worse than that.
that was my version of optimistic.
that when you are THAT low, you cannot go anywhere but up.
and i was right. this year was hell awesome.

a lot of gratitude needs to be shown...
first, a big thank you to a boy.
who showed me that it is possible for a victim to turn into the hunter.
that i am not what i thought i would be.. and that is okay.
that it is possible for a normal guy to like-like such a mess like me.
and a huge apology, still to him.
it is not you that should have sent the sorry text thing you sent.
it should be me. catch-up talk soon! sorry sorry sorry!!!!

second, to everyone in Sydney who has tolerated my annoying behaviors.
you have not seen all of my weird-but-cute (LOLZ) antics.
like the fact that i dance to hardcore music every morning after my sister leaves for office.
and the fact that i drink milk straight out of the box
and the fact that i leave my room in a mess almost 80% of the time.

uhh and just thank you to just about everyone i talk to on msn about my never ending dilemmas.
everyone in surabaya/sydney/melbourne/anywherelese. i love you :)

OKAY on to the next stuff.
what i got out of this year was...
one quote that particularly strike a cord with me:
"If you're always looking for reasons not to be with someone, you'll always find them. And I guess at some point, maybe you should let go and finally give your heart what it deserves."

man.
2009 has been nothing but boring.
found out the lengths my friend are ready to take for one another.
and to tell you the truth, i'd go that far. and even further.
found out that i am much more than the girl with the messy hair.
found out that i am much more than the girl who is good with numbers.
i may be crazy, i may be losing it.
but i think 2010 may be the year i knock down my walls.
my illiterate walls.
you'll see what i mean.
until then...
happy new year!!!!!! :D:D:D