thaniabites

talking tonight made me remember. again.
i never really know if he loved me or not. most probably not.
but i said something that made the most sense out of all the quotes out there,
"i dont know if he loved me or not. but i feel loved."
then again. isn't that the most important thing of all?
all this time, i've been wondering where i did this all wrong
and finding myself finding the answer on a simple sentence.

i am happy.
i have the bestest friend in the world.
and yes. you know who you are.
the ones who listens to my never ending ramblings on msn.
or the ones who make stupid jokes about me being FAT.
or the ones who make stupid names to call me.
or the ones who make an international phone call to me just because i wanted to talk.
thank you :)

psychological fact:
when a person cries and the first drop of tears come from the right eye,
it's tears of happiness.
but when the first roll is from the left, it's pain.
didn't check which eyes cry which tears,
but i'm pretty sure it's tears of happiness, knowing i have friends like you all to be there for me.
i love you people.

and i miss you.
well maybe not you. but just the way you made me feel.
the way you made me fell for you.
"and if it hits, better make it worth the fall."
and it was worth every butterfly in my stomach,
every heartbreaking moments, every tears shed..
so thankyou. i know someone, somewhere is waiting for me too.
p.s. i also know, when i finish my actuarial studies, my first pay check will kick yours :)
HAHA.

you`re right. i`ve never had a bad break up. i’ve

never had my heart broken into a million pieces.

i have no right to put up these walls, right? but

i have seen my friends cry for months over boys who

they gave their hearts to. i`ve seen boys promise

'forever' only to watch forever end a few months

later, when they find someone better to sleep

with. i`ve been the shoulder to cry on. i`ve seen the strongest

people in the world become weak for love. &

i refuse to be that girl. i will never fall in love.