serendipity.

i seriously think that i've lost all of my mothereffing ability to be articulate.
i am in desperate need of a good book.
i am in desperate need to be inspired.
and i am tired of seeing nice people being screwed over by love.
i got used to being screwed over by the people i love.
"sorry, i am under construction."
c.s. lewis once said, "to love at all is to be vulnerable."
well what if i don't want to be vulnerable?

some boys make very good crushes.
but that's about it.
when i was writing this post, it's really hard to find quotes that suit.
a lot of the quotes are about people being dumped by their significant others,
leaving them lonely and hopelessly waiting for their loves to come back.
it doesn't take a genius to say,
that NO. they're not freaking coming back.
you may think that they are, but they're not.
they're probably already screwing someone else's heart.

so smile.
you'll never know who might fall in love with it.

okay you know what.
i am losing my train of thoughts.
oh god. i have the brain of a goldfish.

anyway.
for the whole c.s. lewis quote:

you don't find love somewhere in this life.
love finds you.
you don't have a say about anything that may or may not happen.
i'm sorry. i have been a jerk.
i do not know the repercussion of my actions.
it's not you, it's me.
no, seriously.
no you know what
ITAKEBACKWHATISAIDLOSER.
it's you, not me.