an open letter.

to whom this may concerns,
a couple of people has been saying this.
that i have changed.
and i know that i've written about this a lot, but i can't help it.

someone once asked me, "what happened to you?"
and i said "why are you asking that?"
"well your blog, it's like all clothes and stuff"
"and what's wrong with that?" *getting a little bit annoyed and shocked.*
and the story goes..

the one time i chose to buy a fashion magazine over the music one,
my sister told me "that's a good change."
and i guess i got a little out of control.
with all the clothes.
but i am still me.
i guess people have a hard time with dimensions in people.
you can't expect a person to be all black or all white with no shades of gray at all.

man, i'm having such a hard time explaining myself.
i do.
i guess it's like..
for the past years, the years of junior high and before..
i was not living.
not living at all.
call it a near death experience, or a near alive experience..
whatever it is, it shooked me all to tiny little pieces
and left me to what i am right now.

so i am sorry.
to whom i do not know.
just to whoever that feels i changed for the worse.
for changing to be the person that i am today.
i am no longer the kid who reads harry potter all the time.
i am no longer the kid who listens to taking back sunday all night long and then complain about it the next morning for not having a good sleep.

but just so you know,
to all of you who has asked, thankyou!
for all i know, call me whatever it is you are calling me, i am fine with it.
next time, maybe you wanna say it to my face? hehe
hehe ^^V